Kurta

Kurta or Kurti
a "shirt"er version of me
yellow lines
gold trimm-ings
and pockets to hold
my waist

Ponty or Panty
Merleau or Merlot
Awww, hells nooo
Crowd of Commie Cookoo for Cocoa Puffs
Green jumper and
taped up gafas...

Angst

Heidegger wrote a treatise on it; Soren K. believed the poet needed it to write; Sartre found the absurdity in being tormented by being tormented; Camus' men lived it while fighting themselves or replicas of themselves; and I, well, I look to them again and now to learn to understand what the great Hesse meant in Demian. I lie. I look to them to understand what I mean to myself if so many aspects of me are controlled by despair. Angst is an overabundance of hope, no? How else do we explain the angst filled person not jumping off the bridge or jumping in front of a bus?

To be continued...filled with too much angst right now!