rambling bocce (f)alls (for v.)

it feels like only last night
that evelyn left us in a room
to fend for ourselves.
you: silent, weird, clever, brave
me: loud, sassy, intense, cowardly

i initiated our escape with the gargoyles
you lead the way
compass tied to your belt
yet you never looked down
i snapped at college boys trying
to sneak a peak
into perspective kids' panties
you laughed at my
outbursts
"silly ass"--you must have thought
as you helped me believe
you followed

as we walked to the point
or maybe the bookstore
or maybe the med
or maybe, just maybe a bench to properly complain

i dug a hole in evelyn's life
the rainy weather
the frat party i would protest
the university's dorm policies
the white boy(s) staring at us

you--like a sweet pill for my demon
threw some dirt in those holes
tiny splatters
just enough to let me know
know
know
that you knew
silence
was the only way
to quiet
a bomb.